Larry, or should I say Erik.
I can't speak for others, but I can say this. I've come very close to killing myself 3 times over the years in climbing accidents. Thankfully I didn't, and I haven't had a real close call in years. All 3 times I made decisions that were stupid and I payed the price. I still have vivid memories of all the scenarios.
There was no internet back when I was doing stuff like that, and thankfully my friends didn't hack me to pieces with a monday morning quarterback routine. I can tell you this I am my own worst critic; I still stop and think every so often, "how could I have been so fucking stupid."
I can't change the past and neither can Andrew, so why don't you lighten up.
Anyway Andrew or Andy; way to not get dead.