#57 - I know that having accepted climbing activities as a part of my life, the pursuit is no less or more important than any other facet. I don't ruminate in guilt of appropriate or proper balance in life due to false reflections from mirrors held by individuals in the minority or culture in the majority. I know climbing is an expression of my life and accept, as with all artwork, that not all (and even myself at times) are able to understand this subjective expression that defies ability to fit in all frameworks; I have no need to promote or defend it. I know, with the acceptance of climbing as a part of a life which no one else can live, I perform it as a unique expression - its value independent of comparison to others.
I know a part of my enjoyment in climbing is the "juggling" of decisions to be made: should I attempt this climb solo or with a partner, should I try this route with this partner or another, shall I attempt this or that route, do I need to back-up this pro or not, should I wait or continue into the storm?
I know I will juggle in fair and foul weather. I know items will continue to be thrown at me regardless of my energy to juggle. I know I will drop things unintentionally I intended to maintain in control. I know outside critics of my juggling will pass. I know the inside critic of my juggling is fickle in judgment. I know I sometimes go for the jugular of jugglers, including myself, in this fickle judgment. I know, if I'm gonna excell and enjoy climbing (and life), I need to lighten the judgment of juggling to see and appreciate the beauty of the art of others and myself.