First off, sack up. If you can't get it together to get some work, food and shelter then people must not trust you in person or you aren't trying.
Secondly, you are coming across as pretty spooky the way you are pleading (kinda like Crampon looking for a date).
Thirdly,If you are really a Paramedic, what is the protocol for an EMT-B administering Epinephrine?
If this guy is new here, how did he come to call Off White "OW" so soon.
I agree with OW, he sounds a little mental.