While my worst fall has never included more vertical distance than 15 feet or any blown gear I do have a certain respect for the consequences of a fall - a fact with which every rock jockey must eventually come to terms. Falling is the ultimate outcome to avoid and you program your head (if you're smart) to accept that you COULD fall at anytime, but you tell yourself that you can make it. Honestly, Pup, if I was in your position I probably would have given it a go, too, if that makes you feel any better. The worst thing you can do post-falling (no matter what the results of the fall) is to fail to learn something from it. If you decide that you are more ok with risking a fall than you are with not climbing then you've learned that if you are to continue climbing you must take a better approach to evaluating the risks while in your present climbing condition. If, however, you decide that you are through climbing because the falling part and its consequences are too big a risk, then you have learned your personal limit. Either way an education occurs, but you shouldn't think that you are defined by whether you give it up or not. The most important thing in all of this is that you are still here talking about this.