become unusually introspective some dark, lonely evening, and wonder why you're not bettering the world, that you aren't producing, you waste the time of your employer, you have a bunch of friends who don't know you, and you are overwhelmed by the patheticness and pointlessness of your existance. And you get in your car and drive pointlessly until you come to a bridge. You get out in the pouring rain, and can't stand how futile your attempts at being an important, knowledgable individual are, and jump? to end it all, to better the world, free up some resources for someone who might do better, bring peace or healing to this world?
Well, I haven't, but you should seriously think about it. You're pathetic. You suck!