cracked, just do everything in your power to get into a field that you're really interested in. for instance: you like to climb; why not try to get involved with the marketing end of a climbing company, or as a tester or some funky shiznit that you enjoy and pays the bills. it took me awhile to find the right thing for me, but it's really worth it not to wake up in the morning and say, "oh fuck!!! i gotta go to work."