WTF do you want us to do about it? Jesus christ. You're contacting a bunch of climbers in a different state asking for help learning how to climb, but then you say that you'll never climb with non-locals who you don't know. WTF?
I offered to take you climbing if you ever make it up to the NW. I'm no badass, but I'm a competent climber. I was trying to be nice, btw, because I believe people should learn to climb for free.
But you didn't respond. (Fuck you too, btw).
Dozens of people on this board have offered advise and suggestions, and you are full of problems and excuses.
Go cry about it somewhere else. I hope you're a troll, because if you're not than you're just annoying.