Finding and noticing that balance is the trick, isn't it? Its crazy. We can all say these things and actually verbalize what it is we need, but more often than not actually slowing down and practicing our words never happens. I can remember on some of my climbs last year, thinking "man, holy shit, I'm really fucking tired! I need to EAT! I need to SLEEP!". Why then, couldn't I stop myself??????????? I've payed such a price this year because of these mistakes. I find myself now, doing so much better at listening, and yet still learning how to recognize what my body is telling me.
I'm realizing at this point that this "episode" can only heal with time. It will pass, and things will heal! I mean, if Lance can win 7 tours with one testical, dude...... I just long to be healthy and strong again SOOOOOOO much. I can't tell you how much bloody injury I've been through, I'm finished with it.............
Thanks for your words Muffy